The Words I Couldn't Say

Young, confused, proud, insecure, sincere, kind, loving, gentle, funny, playful, shy, cautious, passionate, stubborn, scared, sad, intrigued, bossy, organized, chaotic, beautiful, warm, and so much more.

I am not just one thing, one word, one phrase.

I am a complex creature as are most. And while I may freak out, break down, and lose it once in a while, at least I don’t pretend like everything is okay. I wear my heart on my sleeve and while that can get messy I like to live my life honestly. Sometimes I am afraid to speak my mind but when I can’t speak it I write it out. 

I am me and though I sometimes hate it I am beginning to understand how much I can love myself.

Hitting the gym today after work!! Trying to get back in the swing of things slowly but surely.

1. Work was dead today so not to much hard work there

2. I met the new shared labor guy who was quite adorable and reminded me of an old actor but I can’t quite put my finger on it

3. I’ve been going to the gym…. well I went twice and I am working on a set schedule

4. Funny! Number of days “him” and I went without talking. He broke the silence and wanted to talk yesterday but I would say 4 days is a good start…..for him

5. I slept last night. Really slept.

6. I JOINED A COMMUNITY THEATRE GROUP….. well in the process of joining. I am going to their next meeting. I really wanted to go to their show this weekend but alas I cannot

7. I might actually get paid this week…. here’s hoping

8. I am learning not to sweat the small stuff as much

9. Lyss comes to visit this weekend!!!

10. Next weekend in my NY grad party

11. The weekend after that I finally get to be reunited with the ones I hold so dear…. I hope more people are able to come…

12. Nothing for this I just hate odd numbers haha

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Sorry to be worrying some of you. I know my angry outbursts have not really put you at ease but I am attempting to do just that. I am really okay I just have a pretty miserable job and my family is starting to irk me just a wee bit too much! But on the bright side I am working myself back into the gym and attempting to eat better. I am really pretty solid aside from my moments of rage. The funny part is after I write my anger out about 10 minutes later I realize I sound like an emo teenager haha.

All’s well here I solemnly swear :)

I’ve about had it with Mohegan Sun! I had to cancel my lake sunapee bank account because clearly I am not in NH anymore. I went and gave them the information for my new bank but it was not processed in time so no paycheck for Christine. I went to talk to payroll today because the holiday is OVER and no one is there. They are Fucking closed again! Honestly how am I supposed to fix this shit and get my money if no one is ever here to fix it?!?! Ahhh!!!!

I’ve been awake for about an hour and here is my day:

1. No food in the house so really nothing for breakfast

2. My sister got pissed because my cousin called her and it sounded like he was telling her his SAT scores so I ran not even four stairs down into her “apartment” and she screamed at me because her stupid fucking boyfriend was getting changed. OKAY SHUT YOUR FUCKING DOOR!!!!

3. Her attitude is really starting to piss me off

4. I don’t want to go to work

5. I need to go to the gym

6. I wish I could go for a run but there is NO WHERE to run around this god forsaken city

7. Kevin causes nothing but problems. Ever since him and my sister started dating he makes me just want to punch things

8. When he pisses me off I end up wanting to talk to my own idiot….. FIGHTING THAT URGE now

I don’t know if it’s my mom above me or my sister’s boyfriend in the basement but I can definitely hear one of them snoring through the floor…..

whatshouldwecallme:

I’m like, 

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